Healing to Whole

I forgive you for cold heartedly and without humanity giving me the worst news of my life. You sat silently, letting the news sink in without so much as a smile. My husband and I shivering with fear and shuttering from the tears and all you offered was to call someone, somewhere else.

I forgive you because you did the best you could. I forgive you because if you knew the power of love you would have put a hand on my arm, perhaps you would have said, “you will find your way through this.” You would know you could offer me this love without harm to yourself, if you knew the power of love.

I forgive you because in your fear, you knew no better way.

I forgive you for disempowering me over and over, insisting I live in fear along side you because you believe the words you spoke were true, you believe the statistics tell the whole story. I forgive you because this is how you believe you have to do your job. I forgive you because I know your fear and in sharing this knowing we are connected, forever.

I forgive you because I see now the beauty of the gift you gave me. What appeared at first as an ending of the worst sort has shown itself to be the most fantastic beginning I could ask for, beyond the wildest dreams of my small mind. In handing me what to many would look like death, you’ve given me life.

I forgive you because in forgiveness I find freedom from fear, and that sweet freedom is full of love.

With gratitude,
Drea